I really hate

Lazy people
Fat people
Tv commercials
Cold days
Being broke
My dog days

Plans for this year.

I have been accomplishing certains things in my life..Little by little....One day at a time.
I am in love with life.
Be in love with it too.
Claudia.

Wedding Dress

I am so happy I finally could buy my wedding dress even after five years....It does not matter.Robin and I will be getting married in the church by July 20th at 11 AM.
I just wanted to share this joy with friends.
Claudia

I am back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Since last Ausgust I have not written a single word on this blog but I had my own reasons...Right now after a year taking my medication(lexapro) I may consider my severe depression just a desease which is not part of my life,however I still take it every morning.
Last September I went to my Psychiatrist and I had cried like a baby...She turned to Robin,my husband and said I needed to go back to Brazil in order to see what I wanted to see or see who I wanted to see...
I indeed saw my friend twice and If I had to see him just twice to fulfill my gesture of honoring a friend I did accomplish that.
I am doing really fine at work(Starbucks).I like my co-workers and I feel their love,friendship and attention.
I consider having friends now.I laugh which I was not doing that for quite a while...
I promise I will be writing more often.
Have a nice day.
Claudia.Happier than ever............

Hope and other abstract feelings

It has been over a year that I have been living in Brownsville by the border of Mexico and Texas.And I have been through tough times living another world way different from Austin(capital of Texas) and even my own hometown,Fortaleza.
But as I have been on a severe depression treatment and my medicine has been working well.
I see hope.I may make my plans in Portuguese but I write them in English and there is hope in this place.
I still find it hard to live however someway you get used to it and you find friends..
I have been working at Starbucks and I have been planning things for my future which do not depend where I would be living.I just have to make the best of it.And here when it come to be an immigrant as I am...You find hope and joy.Sometimes it is a smile from a friendly customer like Becky(a sweet young girl) that makes me wonder...If teenagers can live in Brownsville,so can I.
I also see that I am not a young person anymore..Boy,I am 36 y.o....Time does fly...
So,I am growing as a human being and I see that this has been helping me a lot.
Over the years I have heard from my friends that they see hope and joy in me...I guess that's because I love life.
Love your life.Because I love mine.

Hope

When it comes to pride nothing better than living here in the United States to witness how proud Americans are.I do not blame them at all.I saw the fireworks on the 4th of July and it makes me wonder why Brazilians are not proud of being Brazilians all year .You feel empowered.
You can accomplish things here no matter If you're black or white.
It's been one full year living in Brownsville and life has improving,it's geting better off every year.
Hope is what it matters.

Secret fears...

I guess everyone has some secret fears..But what I fear most is death....All of a sudden you're damn healthy and then you die...You have a heart attack or car accident...You do not know when you're gonna die...Or when my telephone rings at an early hour at home I think it can be some call from Brazil about some people I love who have passed away.
I also have other secret fears then If I tell they would not be secret anymore...
Got secret fears?
I do.